Yes! That’s what I said, SOMETHING STOLE MY JOY!!!
Now before I put on my Pink Panther spectacles and discover what has been snooping around the walls of my heart and helping itself to my buckets of JOY, lets straighten a few things out…. if you truly knew me, you would know that I am all for fun, I’m not shy of the spotlight, I love to make people laugh, I NEVER pass up the opportunity to MOVE IT, MOVE IT on the dance floor, I am the crazy skinny dipping (with caution of course) nudie streaking adventurous tree climbing, drifting in cars (past life) and love anything with a V8 engine with the speakers blasting LED ZEP type of girl.
YES??? Hang on…NO! Wait…REALLY???? Well YES ACTUALLY YES THATS THE REAL ME! But I was SHOCKED to hear at my friends Hen’s night from a sweet girl that has been around my world for the past 2 years….’I am SO shocked, I thought you were a quiet and shy person that I would see at college walking around with your head down minding your own business, I never thought you would be on the dance floor and so crazy and loud and fun like this, I LOVE IT’… you can just imagine my reaction…BLANK…then REALLY???? Oh NO Honey, that is NOT me AT ALL……….then I thought to myself, that’s not who I am but I know I have become the very thing she described and I am NOT ok with that…because i am not being true to myself.
It got me thinking, what in my life have I allowed to pull me down, what words have a allowed to stick to my mind and play over and over and cause me to let my JOY slip through my hands like sand? Who have I allowed to tell me that I am a failure and haven’t lived up to their expectations? Why did I let go of my bubbly self and replace ME with this heavy and defeated NOT MYSELF? She is right, that’s exactly what I have been feeling for the past 2 years, NOT MYSELF! I have got to fight back!!!!
Sometimes life can weigh heavy on us, throw a punch of disappointment in here, trip you over with harsh words there, spit on you with failing at something then pull the rug right out from underneath you with sickness and point and laugh with a bit of unfair & unjust treatment right?
We have all experienced life’s roller coaster at one point and that’s…. well just life BUT we don’t have to let it steal our JOY and box us in.
We can loose everything but still have our Joy, our love for life, and our laughter…. DONT LET ANYTHING STEAL IT AWAY, IT WILL KEEP YOU FACING EACH DAY THANKFUL FOR BREATH…thankful for another chance to bask in Gods creation and fight for what is rightfully ours…JOY.
While I have breath I HOPE. (My life motto) so much infect its tattooed on my arm, its also what my last name means….and i ware it with pride, its also a constant daily reminder, that life is too precious to be defeated, too short to live unhappy and we only get ONE SHOT!
John 10:10 - The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.
So here’s to finding ME again, learning from God who he says I am, being myself and not apologizing for it, not conforming to what others expect me to be, chasing my dreams, and living the life I imagine. So, are you with me? will you fight for your JOY!?
I WILL MAKE A JOYFUL NOISE, if you don’t like it - GET SOME EARPLUGS!!!!!!!
xBx


